Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Abandonment Issues

Pushing her in a swing easily burns at least 150 calories a minute...
I haven't posted in a while and I feel pretty guilty about that. How else am I supposed to land a book deal if I never bother to write?
Why the hiatus? Many reasons...job, teeth, salmonella, lack of sleep, summer...but I digress
My new job prohibits me from the internet freedom I had at my previous job. It's not that they're web-Nazis at the new job; it's that I'm not nearly as bored as I was and I find myself really enjoying my work. Even if it's something as simple as changing an ad size or as complicated as an RFP due in two hours, I take so much pride in it. I don't feel the overwhelming urge to check my Facebook every half hour or see what's going on at popeater.com. I feel better since I changed jobs. Maybe it's that I actually see the sunshine all day in our environmentally-friendly, energy-efficient office building. I feel healthier despite the hard-core bacterial infection I picked up during my Monterey vacation. (Moral of the story: avoid the ahi)
Another reason is reversion, as in being up all night just like the newborn days. L.E. seems to be sprouting about 4 molars all at once. Poor baby girl is a hot mess of drool and pain. Her Ibuprofen dosing rivals Mommy's post-c-section Vicodin addiction. We had one night where she just didn't stop crying for 3 solid hours. I took her into our basement and cradled her while we watched 4 episodes of Blue's Clues. I'm pretty sure that's the show that inspired the Yo Gabba Gabba creators to strive to make something better. DJ Lance Rock crushes Steve as far as who has a more dynamic personality! (Razzle Dazzle!) I wish babies were born with all of their teeth. This seems like absolute torture for her. I would take her pain 10-fold if it made her feel a little bit better.
L.E. is in a new daycare now and is learning so much. She now points to things she wants. She doesn't talk a whole lot but can "la la la" to all of Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Her new favorite game is bringing books off of the shelf over to me to read to her. She sits with rapt attention as we once again break down the less-than-carb-friendly diet of the Very Hungry Caterpillar. She also loves to dance! It's the cutest thing ever watching her wiggle her booty while shaking her head. 
I've been doing some reading. I started Brooke Shields' book "Down Came the Rain" and I wish I'd read it a year ago. Her story is so similar to my own, including her sweet daughter Rowan born with dislocated hips. I'm not sure if she goes into further detail about DDH in the book but she recalls her feelings of being cheated out of a perfect baby. It's all-too-familiar to me.
But I digress...
Now that the weather is finally warm, I look forward to doing more outdoorsy things. OK, so really the extent is walking to the park down the hill and pushing her in a swing. That counts as cardio, right? And let's not forget the best part of summer outdoor fun: cocktails on patios!
So, dear readers, that's really as exciting as my life has been. I'm looking forward to a fun-filled summer full of outdoor festivals and chasing grilled cheese trucks. I wish you all the same. I promise to write soon.
xo

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